Sigh. I hate it when my old people fall. Sometimes I feel like there was something I could have done or I think to myself if only I'd done this or that, it could have been avoided. Like today. 333 fell again. It's the fourth fall in four days. She looks terrible, bruises every and a black eye to set off her fractured nose. Last night, around 6pm, J called for back up because she was screaming. We couldn't figure out what was going on aside from the fact her hip was hurting like hell, so we called 911. She screamed for 15 minutes. We had two ambulances show up, the 1st was for IL (indepedent living), but the fireman with them came over to 333. He tried to talk to her, but she just screamed and cried, saying her hip hurt and saying she was sorry. The fireman, J, and 333's niece had to hold  her down so she wouldn't move and agitate her hip anymore. I had to leave the room because it hurt my heart to watch/listen because 333 is such a sweetheart. When our set of peremedics showed up, they took her to the hospital. She was supposed to go over to healthcare, but they sent her back to us for the night so they could send her over there tomorrow (aka today).

When I showed up today, she was still here. Her niece had decided that she was going to hire a sitter instead of sending her to SNF (aka healthcare). She's in denial that there's anything wrong with 333 because she loves her so much she doesn't want to see that she needs more help than we can give her. I went into give her her 4pm meds. She was lying on her bed and I asked her to sit up for me, set the pills down and turned just in time to watch her roll off her bed. She smacked her head against the wall and face planted into the carpet. My heart stopped guys. I couldn't believe it. I rushed over to her, calling for my co-workers to grab vital stuff and get into 333 NOW. C came in, called the nurse in and helped me keep her company for a little bit. The sound I'd heard when she hit the floor was her nose breaking. We called 911 and sent her out. While the peremedics showed up I left the room to join C out in the hallway. C told me it wasn't my fault and not to blame myself, but god, how could I not? I'd watched it happen. If I had been closer, I could have caught her. If I had stood in front of her, I could have stopped the fall altogether. If I hadn't turned my back on her and just brought the pills with me over to her. I started to bawl because I felt terrible. C and W(our kitchen server) gave me big hugs and sent me to the bathroom to wash my face. I bawled for awhile and my nurse showed up after they sent 333 out to talk to me. She told me basically what C had, that it wasn't my fault and she was going to fall sooner or later which is true. She also told me that she'd given the niece a sitter number earlier, so we could have had a sitter today at 3pm if the niece had called. She gave me a kudos for acting so quickly and staying calm until I left the room, saying it takes a strong person to keep it together until they can cry in private.

Long story short 333 is over in SNF and probably will be for awhile, which makes me happy. It's all nurses over there who are way more qualifed to take care of her than myself and the beds have side rail things so she can't roll out of bed. Plus, she'll get 24/7 watch instead of just 30 minute checks on our side.

J had to come in, on his only day off the next couple of days, to sign a narc which he wasn't thrilled about. He showed up around 9pm, XD and left a smiley face note on my cart. I leave smiley face notes on my co-workers' carts sometimes, and yesterday, he was really upset about 333. While he was in giving meds. to someone, I drew a smiley face with sparkles and wrote it was going to be ok at the bottom with a backwards shooting star because I'm cool like that. He lol'd at it. Granted he spelled my name wrong, but it's the thought that counts right? XD lol how hypocritical is that? (aka previous post complaining about evil Boss Boss spelling my name wrong). sigh.

Our 4th of July picnic is tomorrow (aka today since it's 1:19 am now lol) and I'm kind of excited. For once we're not having sandwiches for dinner yay! Usually residents have a huge, awesome brunch thing at noon and then sandwiches for dinner. XD lol of course my shift get's screwed over. Yep.

LOL XD Momochan my co-workers think you're cute. M asked me how old  you were and I almost said 18, but stopped myself and said  your correct age. XD;; watch, just when I've got your right age down you'll be turning 20 and I'll have to start all over again. Anyway, M asked because she thought you were 14 or something because you look young. J and I were telling C that I brought you with me when I dropped off shakes and she was like "WHAT?! She was here and met everyone but me?! D:<" J and I were like pretty much yep. Lol so we'll have to swing by my work in August so you can meet her. XD My coworkers rock out loud.

Today we also got our new "key" for our doors. Holy shit it's cool. It's this plastic gray thing and at first you're thinking wtf is this? right, but omg. There's these little black box things with a red light in the middle and you wave the "key" in front of it, it turns green and the door unlocks. rogmtmtrtnriptnrptgt EPIC. Holy shit you don't even know. I played with our front door while we were waiting for Noc. shift and spazzed out when they got there. I can't wait to play with it tomorrow <3.

Right.. I'm going to try to write a little bit, grab a yaoi to read, and go to bed because I'm tired. :O/

P.S. so I totally just lied to your faces because I read my horoscope in BW first and lol'd muchly. Basically it said what doesn't kill me will make me stronger, more kind, and more beautiful. <3 Thanks for the vote of confidence stars.